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         IBI idol. It was an individual concert. something like that. Tunjuk talent masing-masing la and it was singing. SINGING beb. It was not my talent. serious la? nyanyi? no way. Aku ni pemalu okay and it was my first time nyanyi depan semua orang walaupun just audition tapi dia punya berdebar tu. Rasa macam nak balik pun ada. Aku berlatih dekat dorm dengan dak Miza. "Guna suara perut tira, suara perut!" masa tu, aku dah tak tahu mana suara perut, mana suara tekak, mana suara aku. Alhamdullilah, walaupun dengar tepuk dari kakak mentor sebab tak sama rentak. tercepat la apa lah. lantak la asal aku cepat habis. This concert sangat-sangat membantu especially bila kena orang yang macam aku. low-confident person. membina sangat.

         DRAMA. Second concert in a group but it was different from choral speaking one. We divided to different dramas and I got the canterville ghost. We need to cooperate with other colours since in IBI we had four colours (green,red,blue,purple) so yah. Dibahagi kepada beberapa drama. setiap drama ada 4 colour. Apa yang kitorang perlu kerjasama? buat props. What was the conflict? kitorang green okay je. rilek je. we did whatever they want us to do. conflictnya, when they know that freaking things was their task but they doesnt do it and give it to us last minute. like macam esoknya kitorang punya concert and props tu tak siap lagi? lepastu diorang pas je dekat kitorang. Memang aku angin la. kubur tu memang jadi kubur betul lah and one more conflicts. tak ada persefaham antara ahli dalam group. and i felt it. Aku pengganti untuk that colour sebab diorang tak ada satu watak ni and i was like "kalau ada practice bagitahulah, nanti aku datang" sampai dah reheasal pun tak ada practice. first reheasal dah entah apa-apa. One of the mentor tanya awak tak practice ke? "practice kak, banyak kali" i was like bila masa pulak kau practice? bayang-bayang pun tak nampak. sampai akhir memang tak ada communication and persefahaman antara diorang. No salah. antara diorang ada. tapi diorang macam pinggirkan aku la since aku green. I had tried my best kut nak tolong tapi tak appreciate and mengutuk lagi. hmm tak apa la. aku bukan nak sangat ganti. Lastly, for green, Alhamdulillah, we won best drama while that colour yang aku ganti tu dapat consulation. Aku memang tengah lepas geram pun ni ha. kk

         IBI public speaking. this concert kind of kelam kabut sikit. macam nak cepat-nak cepat. So tak banyak sangat. what i gained through this concert eventhough it was individual concert was, dont judge a book by its cover same as dont judge someone by their past. Even sometimes, yes they has incredible future, they got what their want but you'll never believe me yang orang tu ada masa lalu yang sangat-sangat, i can say kesian la. Tak sangka la dia ada masa lalu yang macam tu. through his story, act korang boleh belajar, boleh motivate diri sendiri. He felt like a rubbish in his past but now semua orang pandang dia tinggi. why? because of that effort to change yourself to someone new and I cant forget that iam one of the audiences yang menangis tak berhenti sebab dengar cerita orang. 

         DIKIR BARAT. Last concert. Stressful. Tired. Nak balik. Tak, pehal susah sangat nak tangkap time nak berhenti tabuh tu? sumpah lah, masa dikir barat. aku penat. tak cukup tidur. barai doh. aku buat nak tak nak je. stress dia sampai menangis tepi tangga ye. konfliknya, banyak sangat and im not gonna say about it. let just us(classmates) know about this. Apa yang aku dapat dari concert ni sama je macam concert lain tapi disebabkan dalam satu group tu ramai sangat and banyak perangai. its kinda hard to control but still. we made it. walaupun tepuk tak sama dengan musician. we got second place and tu dah cukup buat aku terkejut. nampak tak aku tak pernah mengharap nak menang. semua concert aku ingat kita dapat consulation. kk im being myself sebab aku pernah confident about something and it was so frustrated bila tak dapat. from that moment, aku just harap dapat biasa-biasa je. but still need to do your best sebab whatever it is Allah tahu sebanyak mana effort kita and apa yang terbaik untuk kita. So? bersyukur.

         i'm about to end this entry. mata pun dah tak dapat nak tahan. mengantuk sangat. so, dari semua concert ni aku boleh buat kesimpulan sikit yang dia membina keyakinan diri aku untuk bercakap depan orang sikit. Thanks to abah for this programe and untuk member-member yang bagi banyak kenangan dekat Seremban 2 and of course Kolej Alpha. see ya next entry.